This little angel turns four today. I can hardly believe how quickly the time has flown by.
It seems like just yesterday I was taking a pregnancy test in tears, crying to first my
little sister, then to my husband how I wasn't ready to have another baby.
I wasn't even sure I wanted one.
Now my hubby ALWAYS teases me with that song, "I Loved You First" as he sings it to Leila.
How mean, right? Obviously once the shock wore of, I was completely enamored of this
little girl. If you follow me on Instagram, you probably already figured that out.
Like seriously, sometimes I just want to squeeze her so hard, I can hardly stand how much
I am completely in love with her.
My Dear Sweet Lallies (as your big sister start calling you when you were still in the hospital),
You are truly Mommy's little princess. Girls can't get more girlier than you.
Princess dresses, Christmas dresses, Easter dresses...
it's easy, those are your every day clothes. It's a fight to get you to wear anything other than
a dress. It's a nice change from your big sister who I beg to stop wearing Wesley's clothes.
How those big blue eyes in a family full of brown eyed people can not catch anyone's attention,
I am not sure. But that certainly makes you extra special.
One of my favorite stories to tell when people notice your big blue eyes, is how your pediatrician
told us that a blue eyed child in a brown eyed family has a 25% chance, but a brown eyed
child in a blue eyed family is impossible...and one time he came across one...
He said "I didn't say a word." I always get a little laugh out of that story.
I very seriously have contemplated homeschooling you, because you are the first baby I have
had with me 24 hours, 7 days a week since you were born. I don't know what I will do
when you are away at school. It will make Mommy so so sad to say goodbye to you every day.
Each day, I try to get stuff done and you ask me "Mommy, will you play with me?
Mommy, will you snuggle with me and watch tv?" And I try to remember that one day you won't
be there all day for me to snuggle and play with. You will be a big girl.
You already are a big girl. Today you turn four years old. You keep telling me that you want to
stay a "wittle girl." And that you don't want to go to school. Yet you love to have friends around
you at all times so that you have something to do. Possibly the amount of time you spend at home
with mommy and daddy will make it that much harder when that moment comes...
oh that moment is coming much quicker than I want it to.
I want you here with me, your sweet baby girl voice, asking me to snuggle all day long.
I am head over heels crazy in love with you, my baby blue eyes. God knew what he was doing,
God knew exactly what I needed when he gave you to me. I can not for a minute imagine my life
without your smiles, your laughter, and your complaints that "My hair looks crazy."
You are my little perfectionist when it comes to how you look. Sometimes that concerns me at
your tender young age. It concerns me that you are so beautiful and if your bow is out of place
you tell me "I don't look perfect."
I pray that we can turn this issue into something useful in your future ;)
My dear sweet Leila, thank you for being YOU. There is nobody else alive that could ever
take the place you have in my heart.
I love you.